If I could move about with confidence and focus and energy my life could once again be full of potential. Or at least the kind of potential that was available to an average person. I began thinking about what it meant to be average. To work very hard to make ends meet. To stand with my peers and struggle through issues that were common- balance work and family life, creating a savings plan for our children etc. I felt so set apart from my peers, so alone in my struggles that were so focused on health related issues.
In an instant I went from of place of hope and possibility, to a reassessment of losses. That highlighted the journey with an endless grief process that seemed to never let me out of its grip.
So, when I was recently asked "What would you do with a day with out MS?" I was surprised at how quickly my response came. My first thought was I don't live like that anymore. I choose to live from a place of acceptance and peace. That means I have to practice gratitude for what I have today, in this moment because this is where I live. Spending time wishing and dreaming for a different life doesn't enable me to live well and build opportunities for myself. This is true no matter who you are. This is a universal truth.
Once again, I stand in the same mindset of my peer group because after all we all have challenges to face don't we?
