Sunday, October 9, 2011
Do What Works
In 2008 I was humbled yet again by this disease and bought a mobility scooter. I worried what other people would think when they saw me. This big machine made me so visible, yet I felt that society would classify me as invisible/expendable. What I found was that a blessing lurked not far beneath this hardship. I was able to move about freely and gracefully with out worry of falling. I could once again "browse" while shopping and I had energy to do more and BE more in this world.
I have decided to dispense of my ego and just "do what works".
To my surprise I did not cease to exist. People were not mean or critical, dismissive or judging. In fact they often looked me right in the eye and met my smile with one in return. The "world" reflected back to me what I put out there. This world once again showed me that there was indeed a place for me.
I have been able to see that people will respond to me in just the way that they would have before despite my disability. They will see kindness as kindness, generosity as generosity, and genuineness for what it is. Although, the way I interact with the world in a physical sense may have changed, the world remains as it always was. Opportunities are plentiful and reasons for hope, abundant.
So my goal from here forward will be to continue doing what "works" and to find a new place to focus my energies, and talents. A place where I can begin to grow again. I am not sure where that place will be just yet but I now have renewed faith that there is indeed a spot waiting for me.